Endwalker [6.0]: Post may contain potential spoilers.
Quite some Time
There’s a lot I like to say given the circumstances. Now I can claim that moving was a lot more “fun” than intended, along with financial woes and my computer deciding to go off itself. In truth, I could’ve been making a lot more posts as of late especially in the past month or two. I just haven’t.
I feel like a lot of the reasons were just simply due to the fact that I was simply burnt out on FFXIV for a good while. Lets be honest, the whole making a daily screenshot in FFXIV was a double edge sword. Sure the posts got me a lot more invested into a game than I ever did, but it also led to me constantly having to fight the ever looming battle of self-imposed “deadlines”. I believe after November last year. I hopped onto FFXIV once a month or two. This was a problem that I never really dealt before since I usually just migrate over to another game and not feel regret over it.
I had made a routine for roughly over a year and now it hurts me that I just left it in the dust for months at a time.
I originally planned on introducing some “grand” plan to prevent this problem from happening again. However the more I think about it the more I realize that it was just making the whole situation far more complicated than it should be. Generally speaking, when making a routine/habit, you want to remove as many barriers as possible so that the procastionation monster doesn’t just say “maybe another day”. I spent wayyy too much time figuring out how to get back in, when in reality I should’ve just started posting.
Its really sad to see how much I allowed this to fall apart, but I can’t allow myself to dig further into the ground. After all, I have yet to reach for the skies.
A more positive outlook
While I haven’t been active in this blog for a good amount of time. I still have been doing stuff. Mainly reading. Lots and lots of reading. Last year I read roughly over a 100 books and I might be breaking that record again this year. Honestly, a friend of mine should’ve never introduced me to Royal Road. The amount of new and fascinating stories have been a treasure trove for me. Although, I do want to mention that it baffles me that people would spend money to just get a few extra chapters on patreon.
Although… I might be a perfect target demographic for those… Maybe too perfect. Look I rather throw money at a random author than some corporate overlord that I don’t even use the service of anymore.
What I will say is that reading the web fictions on Royal Road has been making me want to post one of my own. I do have that one story that while doesn’t have too many chapters, would be a great way to get many eyes to see its flaws and hopefully determine if people would even enjoy it. Although, I did scrapped the story at one point and did a complete revision because of how annoyed I was with the beginning. To be more specific, I was finding problems with how I wanted the story to proceed in the initial start as it was hindering me more than anything else.
Moving away from tangents
Alright, lets just get into the meat of this post. As it stands, I left this blog on a hiatus far longer than I like. Personally, I’m a bit conflicted on if its a wise idea to continue onwards. So many ideas and projects left on the wayside. Its a bit difficult to grasp what to do with the situation. So… Its probably best to tackle this in a new light. By that I mean to simply abandon whatever expectations I had of myself months ago and just focus on one thing. Just write.
Now I do want to stick with the good old method of getting a screenshot from FFXIV. However its no longer pertinent as to how I achieve those screenshots.
Will I stick to the daily posts? No idea. I do really like the idea and see little reason to refrain from it. At the same time, I really need to ensure it doesn’t create further restrictions that lead into another burn out like before.
All of this is on a whim at the moment. I don’t know what will stick, however leaving myself in the gutter is the last thing I want. The ultimate goal of mine for years has been to tell stories. Never really cared about the medium. Although writing has been the easiest form for me to do it in. As such if there are any longterm goals it is to start posting a story onto Royal Road and see how things go from there.
As always, I hope you folks have a good day/night!
As a side note, its absolute hell when you lose your hud/keybind layouts for FFXIV. Having to rebuild it from scrath is a horrifying task.